Moving Forward

I love the look on Allie's face when she sees my eyes pop open for the first time in the morning. It's like me opening my eyes is the most exciting thing she has ever seen. Today I was anxious to get her off to Mother's Day Out so that I could begin my list of phone calls. Things didn't go exactly as planned. Yesterday I found out that my insurance company wouldn't cover Cancer Treatment Centers of America in Chicago.  I was a little bummed but quickly got over it because I had a few back up plans.  Alan spoke to my doctor and he said that MD Anderson in Houston was definitely where I needed to be. He told Alan that he didn't believe there was anything else that the doctors in Arkansas could do for me.  After talking to the insurance company again this morning, I was told that they would not cover MD Anderson either. We would be responsible for 50 percent of everything out of state. Obviously that isn't even an option for us. It would be hundreds of thousands of dollars. We have decided that I am going to switch to a different doctor in Little Rock and maybe when I can get on Alan's work insurance, we may have more options. Right now we don't have any other choice. The new doctor told us that as soon as I could gather all of my files from the other doctors that he would fit me in the same day. Tomorrow we will be traveling to UAMS, Baptist in NLR, Carti and about 5 billion other places that have files with my name on them. If we can get that done, I can be seen and have a scan!  It looks like I may have an appointment Friday or Monday at the latest. On another note, I have received SO many emails, texts, and facebook messages. Everyone has been super supportive. At church on Wednesday our class made a circle around me, held one another and said a special prayer. Everyone cried but it was a good cry...like one that everyone needs to have every once in a while.  :) I'll continue when I get scan results.