Fa la la la laaaa

I heard Alan coming down the stairs... "WHAT? Are you kidding me!? Summer...for real!!??" Yep, I decided to put the Christmas tree up on November 6th, three weeks before Thanksgiving. It just makes me feel good to see all the Christmas stuff and look through all of the ornaments. Alan seriously thinks I've lost my mind. He told me to take my tree out to the dog's room and let them enjoy it until a week before Christmas and then I could drag it back in. It really is way too early but it's helping to keep my mind off of things! So...we made it to the doctor on Friday. Alan got stuck in the waiting room talking to a lady that was 81 and she was going on and on about Peggy and Susie and Maxine and blah blah blah. I was filling out paperwork and Alan interrupted me and said, "Here, I'll take that up there and finish it for you."  I looked at him and smiled and told him that I was doing just fine and he could sit and chat with his new friend. I think he wanted to trip me after that. The doctor talked to us for about 30 minutes. He said they've tried everything and my body isn't responding the way that it should. Apparently what is happening is rare and the doctor said we should start praying for miracles.  :(  He feels 100 percent that MD Anderson is where I need to go. So, they are going to try and work on insurance and see if they will cover it because I have been to 5 doctors in Arkansas and nothing is working. If they cover it, that will be wonderful. If not, we are going anyway!! I am doing my scan on Wednesday at 7:30 in the morning and I have an appointment to get the results on Thursday at 12:30.  Our prayer is that the scan will show little or no cancer outside of the initial place it was detected.  My appointment in Houston will be 1 to 2 weeks away and Ill probably get the appointment date and time when I go in Thursday. I don't know if i am in denial or what because I am still feeling ok about things. The mornings are the worst but after the initial shock of knowing that I'm not dreaming, my mind starts to slowly calm down. Hopefully when I write on Thursday I'll feel much better. :)