The Countdown Begins

Well, I'm getting down to the last days before the big day. Things have been so wonderful lately. I took a trip to Branson with my mom and we shopped and shopped and shopped. It was the best time that I have had in months. We celebrated Christmas yesterday and it was amazing. Friends from facebook posted messages throughout the day wishing me a merry Christmas. It actually felt like it was Christmas day and that we weren't even celebrating early. Everyone has been so supportive and are praying continuously. Some old friends from high school got together and surprised me with a gift last Thursday. I was shocked for hours because some of the girls I haven't talked to in at least 10 years. Everyone is so thoughtful and it's just amazing that so many people would come together and do something so great for me. I have had lots of time to come to terms with things and it has been easier the last week or so. Yesterday and especially today the nervousness has set in. I had my pre-op appointment Friday and the doctors went over every step of the surgery. They told me that I may wake up with an epidural to help with the pain for a couple of days. I am beginning to feel a slight bit of panic but know that it will be over soon. This is my last day to eat so my husband and I are planning to go to dinner with some great friends. I feel like this is really my last day to be the old me. No matter what the outcome may be, I will be a changed person when I wake up. Either I will get through the surgery and begin the recovery process or I will wake up to discover that I need to start figuring out another plan. I have to be in the hospital at 6 am on Wednesday and if everything works out I should be in surgery until 8 or 9 Wednesday night.  My sister is going to keep my blog updated while I am away.